Although I had a good day yesterday, for some reason last night was kind of difficult. I was spending too much time on Memory Lane but decided to try something new. Instead of getting too emotionally attached to thoughts, I acknowledged them and tried to move on. I also have to keep reminding myself that no one has great days all the time. Some days might just be ok or even not great but not bad either. Life is not just black and white and living in the gray area is something I am learning to do.
This morning I woke up not feeling well physically and also feeling a little self-conscious. I was also having a bad hair day. When these days come around and they inevitably do, I’m finding the best way is to just act like it’s a going to be a great day, or as I’ve heard a million times, “Fake it ’till you make it.” So, today called for a power outfit. One of my “power outfits” is more of a cute little semi-French outfit. It makes me feel really feminine and it’s nice to have a confidence boost when you like what you are wearing.
Today I had my Philosophy of Creativity course and since it is during the hours of 12 to 2, I needed to bring some sort of snack with me until I could have a later lunch. Dried fruit has to be one of my all-time favorite snacks. It’s less messy in a classroom and a little more discrete. And Luna Protein bars are just delicious because they all taste like candy bars to me.
I used to love Sobe LifeWater but for some reason I’m not feeling it much anymore. These days I much prefer flavored coconut water or the Mamma Chia drinks. But I digress.
Throughout class I held onto my tangle because my nerves were going crazy. I was having a lot of racing thoughts and I had to stop my mind from wandering off. Today’s class wasn’t as discussion based and that was a little disappointing. I much prefer being able to debate with fellow students.
Now however, I feel compelled to do something about this melancholy that has come over me. Perhaps it’s the gloomy weather outside or thoughts about my least favorite holiday coming up in 12 days, but I don’t want to get in the habit of letting myself indulge in sadness and regret, which is what Valentine’s Day brings up for me. I’m not saying that it’s not ok to be sad, but considering my past history with depression, it’s important for me to actively work through the things that are upsetting me.
I’m going to put on some good music, pull out my DBT skills training manual, and log a few entries in my DBT log. I also have my very first real yoga class tonight, which I am excited to tell you all about after it happens. I’m going in with the intention of enjoying myself and learning new things!
Your turn: What do you do to help yourself get through sad days? If you have ever taken a yoga class, do you remember your first one?