Shortly after writing my post this morning, I found out another friend died a few days ago. Finishing my last paper was so difficult. This is the third friend of mine that’s passed away within the last 4 1/2 months and all were under the age of 25. I don’t understand why the majority of people don’t want to talk about the mental health crisis our country has. Seeing tweets today on twitter about football season and Gray’s Anatomy all just becomes so trivial and meaningless when you are facing/experience death and serious pain.
I’m still going to continue to fight for my life no matter who does or who doesn’t. I will not be a cautionary tale and I will not be a statistic. Someone has to start talking about all the crap people don’t want to talk about because it’s too painful, so it might as well be me.
When faced with something like an eating disorder, you don’t choose to get one, but you choose what to do with it. You can try to fight or you can let it win. Sometimes people try to fight and still don’t win and that is the most tragic thing. If you do try to fight, you’ll find beauty you never saw before, a world you never saw before. It’s amazing.
I’m still fighting and by the way I finished college today.